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Friday, September 18th, 2015
7:36 pm - Tap tap...
Is this thing still on?

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Tuesday, June 10th, 2014
10:22 pm
Go figure that as soon as I WANT to get pregnant, it doesn't happen. Maybe I need to actively avoid getting pregnant in order to get pregnant. Maybe if I get back on the pill, it will happen.

I'm trying to avoid frivolous use of computers so as to not exacerbate the carpal tunnel. Also, to enhance my quality of life. So far, I cut down. But the more I sit at home, the more it becomes a temptation. So I try to stay busy with other things. And that is a good start to enhancing the quality of my life.

I am also enjoying my new bohemian lifestyle.

That's all. Not worth ruining my hands over a single further sentence in this damn thing!

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Tuesday, May 27th, 2014
6:33 pm
Wow, LJ, wtf?

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Saturday, April 12th, 2014
5:13 pm
I forgot I had this thing

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Friday, April 4th, 2014
2:25 pm
Someone from the military just e-mailed all of the students, trying to get the med students to enroll as navy doctors in exchange for scholarships. I was naughty: my reply to her was "I thought that the military was supposed to take lives, not save them." I am about to be so harassed for this comment.

I'm still really upset about my school actively trying to recruit military and getting covetted spaces on campus for their military training. Let our students make something good out of themselves. Let them become real doctors. Taking advantage of impressionable youth is so dirty.

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Saturday, March 29th, 2014
10:37 am - Wow...
I got a copy of someone's online reservation and found this on it:

Base Fare
$ 0.00
Excise Taxes
$ 0.00
Segment Fee
$ 0.00
Passenger Facility Charge
$ 0.00
September 11th Security Fee
$ 5.00

So this is what is comes down to: $5 so the TSA can strip search you, sexually harass young girls, racially profile people, steal money from innocent people, falsely imprison people... and where is our $5 going? Whose pockets?
(yes, I can cite references to each of these incidents- often, multiple times).

Cuba is starting to look like an attractive future place of domicile.

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Wednesday, March 26th, 2014
9:25 am
Okay, I'm going to say this, but only because barely anyone is on here anymore. I haven't seen most of my friends in awhile because I have no car. My closest friends require road trips. So I've been putting it off. Then I'm on break, and still make no plans. Then the first week of April, everyone and their mom has something planned and I absolutely have to go. And I'm equally guilt-tripped into visiting them all because I haven't seen most of them in forever and for some of them, this is my last chance to see them for awhile.


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Tuesday, March 25th, 2014
10:03 am
I just got back an essay. She loved the parts that I thought were horribly thought out. She hated the parts that I thought were brilliant. I was writing exactly what I'd been told to look for, and it wasn't good enough. Maybe this means something. Stop regurgitating what I think they want and think for myself?

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Monday, March 24th, 2014
1:56 pm
Someone posted this adorable blasphemy: Which brings up this old joke:

Why God Failed to Earn Tenure

1. He published only one book.
2. It was in Hebrew.
3. It had no references.
4. He did not publish it in refereed journals.
5. There is significant doubt He wrote it Himself.
6. He is neither collegial nor a regular coauthor.
7. Sure, He created the world, but what has He done lately?
8. He did not get permission from any review board to work with human subjects.
9. When one experiment went awry, He tried to cover it up by drowning all the subjects.
10. When sample subjects do not behave as predicted, He deletes the whole sample.
11. He rarely comes to class - and just tells His students to read the Book.
12. It is rumored that He sometimes lets His Son teach the class.
13. Although He only has 10 requirements, students often fail His tests.
14. He expelled His first two students for learning.
15. His office hours were infrequent and usually held on a mountain top.

Nowadays, nobody gets credit for their own work anyway, haha.

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1:23 pm
To all those women who think they needs guns and t-shirts to not get raped:

I carry neither. All I carry is common sense and confidence. Instead of raping me after a chill day of skinny-dipping and drinking by the river, the questionable-looking men instead ESCORT me out of the raspberry bushes so I can get back safely. When men are jerks, it's because they are jerks, not because you let them be jerks.

Also, today was amazing. There's nothing like a warm run then cool swim in the middle of a non-busy day. Just what this mama needed.

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Friday, March 14th, 2014
1:24 pm
Pros of this place: I'm not flooded with random entries from people I don't know on the front page that I want to leave inappropriate messages to.

Cons: I still want to write inappropriate comments ):

Plus, I don't feel like writing so much.

Instead of embracing this, I'll bitch about it.

I'm the only one left in this damn study room. I'm not going to get anything done without someone watching over my shoulder!!

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Wednesday, February 26th, 2014
1:10 pm
Timed 100 yard swim: 1:21. That's in minutes, not hours! No, I am not a sprinter. But I did beat two whole people! Haha. I discovered that my slow lap is the third lap.

Just for my records.

So the pregnancy scare was just a scare, but is still technically possible, but I'm not worrying about it. It will be okay no matter what.

I have to pee, so this entry will be vague.

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Monday, February 17th, 2014
9:05 pm
This Sudafed stuff is turning me into a person who is not so great. My appetite is going away, I'm getting headaches, I'm really irritable, I want people to stay away from my personal space, and I just want to be left alone. All of this so that my head doesn't feel like it's in a snot-filled vacuum. I need to get out of the central valley. For oh-so-many reasons.

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Friday, January 31st, 2014
2:05 pm
Fucking annoying. Our friend, who likes dubstep, is staying with us for a bit. The next time I log onto my Youtube account, it recommends "the best of dubstep" to me. Furthermore, Ian and I were working on fixing my car on his computer. Later, I go to make a Google search on this computer, and the same searches came up! I'm getting sick of this spy program. It's gotten the past of illegal and is now just annoying. Kati once gave me this book "censoring a love story in Iran," and the guy was talking about tapped phone lines. I'm starting to sympathize!

In other news, I believe I'm starting a new "online diary," at the urging of an old friend. I was entirely sure that people no longer read that diary. So it became a place of private writings. It's amazing how much you open up when you think nobody is looking. Then when I realized that someone was looking, instead of feeling bad, I felt proud over how honestly I was able to write. I realized that I could keep writing that same way while having the ability to stay in touch with an old friend. Diaries that intimate are amazing at record keeping. For example, I could use it to figure out dates that I started jobs, purchased something, or find out if I'm late on my period. Very convenient. Yes, I am so, very, very, deep. Honestly, I wasn't writing much. But the level of communication on a diary is so much more personal than these silly social networks. Also, I don't think I'm actually going to convert anyone politically the way I'm going. I'm beginning to think I'll never become supreme overlord ):

Also, I've been speaking to my adviser. I was beginning to give up on the idea of teaching credentials. You have to have money to go into teaching. I understand that teaching means you'll be poor. But apparently you can't start off poor. wtf. But I can get another completely useless degree if I'm willing to do it in French. UCDavis has guaranteed TA positions for that major. I missed the deadline for this year. Until then, he said that I should try to go abroad. The sad part is that I don't think he meant I'll be able to take my family. He said that I should stay in French and try to get tenure.

This leads to the next question- wtf is the point of all of this? It's nice that I'm not going into debt. But how does this ensure that I will ever make money? I'm okay with being poor. But at some point, I'd like to be able to feed my family, maybe send Julian into this same labyrinth that is "college."

Anyway. Julian is getting pissed at me. I need to go pay attention to him. Also, I need to start looking for a new job.

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Monday, November 11th, 2013
9:08 am
If there were no soldiers, there would be no war.

Happy US veterans day... at least I have an extra day to study.

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Sunday, October 13th, 2013
9:15 pm
We're sick of having pot bellies, so we decided to go on diets. Here's the crappy thing. I like to swim. 2000 yards per day. If I eat 1500-2000 Calories/day, I have a hard time finishing my workout. I get tired and give up at only 1500 yards. Working out makes me feel good. Whereas if I totally pig out, 2000+ Calories, I can accomplish my swim, maybe a little more, a walk, and have the energy to get through my day. The bmr+activity calculator said that I only need about 1700-1900 if I'm exercising as much as I do. And I exaggerated my activity levels just a bit! I always feel the need to eat a lot. I get a pot belly, but don't gain weight. Furthermore, if I don't, I don't have the energy I need to get through my day. However, I do need to shape up. People tell me that while I do not look fat, I could stand to lose weight. I think they're referring to the fact that I still look pregnant.

How do I get rid of my belly without sacrificing my workouts? I refuse to go lightheaded just to gain a trim physique. I'm not going for anorexia. I'm trying to look healthier. I could probably stand to eat a couple hundred Calories less, right? Or I could eat healthier, cut out certain foods, eat more of certain foods, etc. Diet accounts for a lot. Don't tell me to do ab work. I can't do any lifting or ab work until my surgery. But that's not the problem since I've done plenty of ab work since my pregnancy.

I don't know what to do. Since I can't have another kid yet, I should try to stop looking pregnant. Any advice?

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Monday, September 16th, 2013
10:08 pm
I just turned down the opportunity to make extra money by writing someone's essay. How old and boring have I become?

I'm sorry. When I was in community college, bored, and writing papers for beer money, who cares? But now, I'd rather spend my time relaxing, being with my family, catching up on my own work, etc. Sure we're low income. But we can live without the money.

But yes, I am boring.

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Thursday, July 25th, 2013
12:58 pm
I don't get this. People are constantly complaining about wage disparity and minimum wage. I invited over 200 people to strike, protest, and organize against unlivable wages. Only one person committed to showing up. I suggest working from the inside out to tackle poverty. If enough wage workers fight back, we can actually earn a living. TAXES WILL GO DOWN because our employers will be paying us, not welfare. Both democrats and republicans have a reason to support us. But while people complain, nobody wants to get off their ass.

What's wrong with them?!

I live in a world full of people who are not self-motivated. They're freaking sheep.

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Tuesday, July 23rd, 2013
12:24 am
I am way overdue for a lesbian experience. Guys just aren't doing it for me anymore. Not attractive to me in the slightest. Girls are way hotter, anyway.

Too bad all of my go-to girls are far away ):

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Saturday, July 13th, 2013
1:00 am
Ugh, tonight is not going so well. I had to work with that girl who thinks I'm trying to take her hours. She and my other coworker tried to mess with me by talking about her doing dirty things with her girlfriend. She knows that I find her attractive and that my relationship is not as hot as it used to be. And I kinda feel like I was pulling more than my fair share at work today. As usual, not only did I do the closing tasks of two people, but I helped out with everyone else' closing tasks.

Then I came home and looked up the decision from the senate meeting in Texas right away. It's not looking good. More and more states are pushing for restrictions on abortion and women's subsidy health care. Oh, and preventative care. And from the looks of things, there might be bad things to come in terms of women's rights. Here, put it this way- in Saudi Arabia, if you have the money, you can get an abortion. You know there's a problem when Saudi Arabian women have more freedom than you do. I can't believe the direction this country is going in.

Until then, I had a good day. I sold a pendant to a neighbor. She thinks that I should market my wire-wrapped beads. Julian and I had a fun trip to the park. Tomorrow might be a fun day, too. Going to capoeira in the morning. Then crafting. Then I might go to a drum circle in Sac. Then more crafting. Then, tomorrow, we'll see if I can finally sell one single piece of jewelry.

Anyway. I need to get rid of this crap mood. I think I'll have a late-night snack then sleep it off. Night!

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